Hey people!!! hope you are having a good day?...... Okay I told you all in my previous post that this is "REVELATION" time right? You see, all of this truth sharing is not just for your reading vs viewing pleasure. It to show you how far I have come, I feel really whole, healed and free just letting all of this personal informations out. In my previous post I told you how the conversation between me and my mom went right? if you missed it read it Here.
To be honest with you, that conversation didn't go down well with me. I wanted to know more, I felt there was a lot more to be said. I wasn't satisfied with the "what happened to you is called POLIO it happened as a result of you falling sick when you were a baby" I wanted to know what exactly caused the "polio" thing. As far as I was concerned, every little baby falls sick at some point and they don't all turn out to have bad legs.
My biggest problem then was the stories I hear outside my home, what people used to tell me then about my leg was too deep for me to understand. A simple heart to heart talk with my parents would have helped me a great deal. I would have handled myself, the situation and bullies better. I wouldn't have been as angry and troubled as I was. Don't get me wrong, my parents are loving and caring people who simply want the best for me and my siblings. They tried to explain to me the best way they could but to them, I was too young to know the nitty gritty of the whole matter. I was asking too many questions a little girl my age shouldn't be asking. Ify, you are too young to understand my mom will emotionally tell me.
Not knowing much about polio disturbed me a lot then, it turned me into a bitter person. People will tell me Sharon, your parents did not vaccinate you when you were a baby that why your leg is like this. They blamed my parents for what happened to me and I went with what they said. My mom in particular felt really guilty about a lot of things. She felt she and my dad could have done more if they knew about polio at the time. The guilt and emotion she carried became a barrier each time we want to have that conversation.
NOTE TO PARENTS:
If your child has any medical problem, no matter their age please talk to them about it. Try to explain what it is don't just give them a name and feel that information is enough at their level. Let me tell you, so long as you child can talk they will ask questions....... if you don't tell them, someone else will and the danger of it all is that; that the information gotten outside may not be correct. Children are researchers too. This task can be a very difficult one as emotions are involved. If you can't explain it alone, call in someone to help you. that person might be a doctor, psychologist or a specialist in that field. If you love your child, tell them the truth or they will grow to hate you.....
We finally got to really talk about what really happened to my leg in September 2014. Yes!!! it was polio but, I got to understand that polio don't just happen...... it is the "effect" of a "cause". I also got to know that I was paralyzed from my waist down.... I got to know about the sufferings and the things my parents had to go through......My parents were young and IGNORANT. Am all sort of emotions right now........ Let's talk about this in another post.
I love you for stopping by...... Please come again.
Sharon xxx....
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